I walked across that stage and I felt a newfound freedom.
I felt like the world was my oyster. I was done spending days studying for exams, I was done with homework assignments and my time was mine.
Yet, that was exactly the problem.
I had been so used to always being told what my time would be spent on (class, homework, exams, projects) that I didn’t know what it was like to be free to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted.
All of that time started adding up and suddenly I realized that I was constantly thinking about my future because I had all the time in the world to do so.
I would think about what my next step was while I was at my waitressing job. I would think about where I should apply for jobs while I laid in bed at night. I would think about how far away I was from accomplishing anything that I wanted to as soon as I woke up in the morning.
When I look back to those awkward months following my graduation from college, I think of all the things that I wish I had known that could have put me at ease.